Still hurting..

[Threedogsandahedgy]

When I found the Over the Rainbow Bridge postings, it immediately brought tears to my eyes.
My baby boy Bentley died on January 11, 2005. I know that may seem like a long time ago to some of you, but to me it will never fade away. I woke up in the morning to get ready for work and let him out of his kennel. He was having convulsions and began bumping into walls. I carried him out to the lawn cause I thought maybe he had to potty ( I know now how ridiculous this sounds). I didn't realize the severity of the situation. I was bawling as I was driving in rush hour traffic to my dad's with poor Bentley in my lap. My vet is at least forty minutes away from my house because I don't trust anyone with my animals. So I went to my dad's because I knew I couldn't drive there alone. He called the vet to tell them we were on our way. By the time we made it to the vet, Bentley had already passed on in my arms. I just sat there holding him not believing that this was happening. Everything had been fine with him. He was a brilliant, energetic, playful boy.
He died when he was 7 MONTHS old. It was the last thing I ever would have expected.
The vet did an e-cropsy on him but it is still unknown what ended up killing him.

[caramel]

Yes this topic always makes me cry too. Hugs coming to you and we can cry together.

[rexandbaby]

How very sad! And time doesn't matter!

[gary]

Sometimes, words don't come easily

[Doggymommy]

I am so sorry for your loss. Words are never enough and it doesn't matter how much time has passed when we lose a loved one, it still hurts just the same as if it were yesterday.

We have all been in your shoes and as long as we love our dogs (and other pets) we will all be in them again.

I know it is hard (it is hard for me too)but try to remember the happy days with Bentley. That is what he wants and of course always remember he is waiting for you at the "Bridge"

[Threedogsandahedgy]

Thank you all for your responses. The only thing that really still gets me about it is that I feel as though it's my fault. Who knows if he would still be with me today if I had taken him to a closer vet or taken him to the vet instead of trying to get him to walk? If the vet had found an answer or at least a clue to why he passed on then I might not feel so bad. I guess that wondering "What if.." never really gets anyone very far though. I have my memories of him though and that will have to be good enough. Thank you all for listening!