by Rhyna on Sat Nov 22, 2008 4:51 am
Thank you, each of you for your words of encouragement, understanding, and friendship. You may not realize how much your comments and words help, but they do so much, thank you...
This afternoon was hard, I had to tell my daughter, she is only 10, and she took it very badly. It was all the worst because she was in a hurry this morning and did not pat Tigger before school. She felt as if she did not get to tell him goodbye, she cried so much. She keeps saying she just want one more chance to love him, she made me cry again.
My boys tried to be tough, as boys of 16 and 17 will do. However, when my son who is 16 got home from school he went out in the back and made a place for Tigger to lie down and rest. He would not let any of us help him with the chore he wanted to do it himself. I am not sure, why he wanted this; I think he needed time alone to shed his tears, so I let him. He has Tigger’s collar in his room now, all but his tag the one with his name on it; he put it on a chain to wear. I guess it is his way of holding on he is just not ready to let go.
My oldest, he is my tough guy, but he helped me to wrap up our old man in his favorite blanket. He said he did not want him to be cold, then we carried him to his final resting place and we laid him down. We each let a candle, we then told what we loved most about Tigger , what he mint to each of us, we ended with a prayer before blowing out candles.
Daisy has just not been herself today, she is so quiet and lost, and I know she misses him. I am giving her even more time and attention to help her adjust and me too. I know that some would think our service is silly, but it helped my children to say goodbye. It did not stop all the tears, those will continue for a while, but it gives us an ending maybe.
I am sorry for rattling on and on, but I just needed to talk, to let it out so to speak. It is almost 4:00 am and I can still not sleep. Love you and miss you Tigger…
Rhyna…Mom...