Welcome Gwendolyn. Bear is absolutely beautiful. I know only too well what you are going through at the moment. I hope to find your thread and I'll comment more in there.
For now, you are both lovely, and thanks for joining the "Brave Club", not that you need to brave as you are very attractive. Positive thoughts! You'll find this is a very supportive community of dog lovers with seemingly never ending compassion for others. They have sustained me through a great deal already, and I know we'll all be here for you too.