My beautiful Willie....taken too soon

[4 the Dogs]

Vanessa, sometimes there just are no answers. I am so very sorry for Willie and you. Know that we all share in your heartache and are here for you.

[Oliver & Henry's Mum]

Vanessa, as Kris said, sometimes there are no answers. You did give Willie the best life. He loves and adores you still, and always will, just as you will with him. It just hurts so damn much. My heart is breaking for you.

We are all here for you, sending all the love in the world. ♥

[nezza]

So many thanks to all of you. It's heartwarming to know that you all care so much.It's been so hard, going from such extreme sadness one minute to outrage the next. Waffles and Triscuit have been spending a lot of time on my lap the last few days, trying to cheer me up with their puppy antics....and i just feel so numb. My OH has been trying the best he can to make me laugh, or try to take my mind off of this tragedy....but it's all i can think about.

[nezza]

i spent this morning putting some more pics of Willie up under his profile.... i want him back so baddly....

[4 the Dogs]

I know you do. Willie will be in your heart forever.
I'm glad you shared some more pictures with us. His sweet and affectionate personality shines though.
I'm sending you big hugs and thinking of you.

[nezza]

i appreciate that. thank you and i'm glad you enjoyed his pictures.

[Oliver & Henry's Mum]

Vanessa, I took a moment and went through all of Willie's pictures. My son Ben was beside me, and unlike Elliot, he was unaware of what happened to Willie. Needless to say, as he looked at all of the pictures, he too felt outrage, as do I. We were both marvelling at what a beautiful, gentle soul Willie is.

The whole thing is just so shocking and painful. I wish I could hug your hurt away. I'm not surprised that Triscuit and Waffles are trying. ♥

Willie will always be with you. xo

[Margie-Rex's Mom]

I've looked thru the photos too. My lasting image in my mind will be sweet Willie with the puppies. What a beautiful boy he was.

Back when I was in college, my puppy was killed in much the same way as your Willie. I know the horror, anger, and despair you are feeling. But I only had my puppy for a few months. I can only imagine how much more intense your feelings are having such a history with Willie. Hold on to those memories and know how much he loved you.

Sending you big hugs from me and Jose. Let the puppies help you thru this time.

[nezza]

deb, margie, your kind words brought tears to my eyes this morning. it still hasn't sunk in that he's really not here anymore. i keep looking, expecting to see him or hear him, his "howl/talk" that i LOVED to listen to and how i would talk to him and he would answer back with that malamute "talk". I, too, am so angry about the whole thing...it was so unnecessary and cruel. I understand that Willie shouldn't have been over there...he always stayed close to the house, or on the porch, or inside with me (i would let him on the couch when the OH wasn't looking)...for whatever reason, he wanted that pig and he slipped through the farmers' fencing and did kill that baby pig. Never would i ever have expected anything like this to happen....it's almost as if i'm dreaming the whole thing....

[Oliver & Henry's Mum]

Vanessa, it is like a bad dream. For whatever reason, Willie's instincts told him to go and get one of those piglets and the Farmer did what he felt he had to do. The "what ifs" are endless and if you give them too much thought, they'll slowly drive you insane.

Time is the only way your heart will even begin to heal. There will always be a special place there that belongs only to Willie, as you have in his. I am surprised that the Farmer wouldn't have let off a warning shot as he surely knew Willie was yours and not a "Wolf" and you could have recompensed him for his financial loss. It's all moot now though.

I'm sure Triscuit and Waffles are up to their usual antics and probably being more loving than ever. Soak up all that gorgeous puppy love and hopefully your pain will start to subside just a little, or be less raw is a better way to put it.

xo

[nezza]

Thank you for your words of wisdom, Deb. Today is the first morning i haven't sat here crying.... The "what ifs" run rampant in my mind and they don't help. I know that "time" is the only thing that will help.

[Oliver & Henry's Mum]

♥

[4 the Dogs]

Vanessa, I just wanted you to know I've been thinking of you and wondering how you are doing?

[nezza]

http://youtu.be/QYYwokZO4mU

Thank you all for your continued thoughts and concern. I know i haven't posted much, if at all, these past few weeks....just haven't really felt up to it much since all this has happened. I have been lurking here and there and my DP friends have been in my thoughts. Above is a link to a video tribute i made for Willie, Scooter and Willie's son Lucky. It is set to a very special song (to me) although it is in Swedish. I have translated it here for all who are interested...as with most languages, when translating to English, loses some of its meaning....the title is Sparvoga which means sparrow's eye...similar to English's eagle's eye view...


you little sparvöga flight over the meadows
dream your dreams as long as you feel life
you little sparvöga flight over the meadows
and dream your dreams as long as you know life
feel life

our time is now
a black and white image
which becomes the color you want
so many choices, so hard to see
When your brown eyes want to see more

you little sparvöga
flight over the meadows
dream your dreams as long as you feel life
you little sparvöga flight over the meadows
dream your dreams as long as you know life
feel life

the time it goes
Life is so short
too short to be hidden away
so do what you want and blossom
enjoy your reflection
our time is now

you little sparvöga flight over the meadows
Dream your dream as long as you feel life

you little sparvöga flight over the meadows
dream your dreams, as long as you know life

you little sparvöga flight over the meadows
dream your dreams as long as you know life

[nezza]

Kris, thank you for your concern. Starting to feel a little better these days...still miss him terribly...but starting to come out of my funk.