Missy the Lovebug

[Sarah8580]

My girl missy came to me when she was almost 2years old. She was a very beautiful brindle pit with a very warm,loving, stoic face. She was so well behaved, you couldnt have asked for a better dog. She just loved to cuddle. She was about 75lbs and believed she was a lap dog. She loved giving out kisses too, she would lick your arm all day if you let her. She was wonderful with my now 3yr old daughter. My daughter used missy as a pillow and would also make missy one of her "patients" when she played doctor. Missy would let her do just about anything. she would sit still while my daughter put a toy blood pressure cuff on her. It was just too cute of a site to see . Unfortunately Missy left us august16,2012 of what the vet thinks was a heart attack. She had thrown up at about 11am and fell down immediatly after i thought maybe she just slipped on the wood floor because when i called her name she got up like nothing had happened. I gave her some extra love and attention because she sorta scared me. She seemed fine she began to play with our other dog and my daughter. About an hour later my daughter said mommy whats wrong with missy? I looked over missy was laying on her belly on the floor, had released her bladder and was making sounds like she couldnt breathe. I immediatly held missy and called the vet by the time i told them what was happening she had stopped breathing completely. Its just so shocking to my family that shes gone just like that. My daughter seems to be having trouble understanding that Missy has passed away. It breaks my heart because she keeps asking if we can go pick missy up and bring her home. I would give anything if life worked that way. I just keep telling her that Missy is in heaven with sasha (another dog of mine that had passed away) so sasha wont be lonely. My heart just aches so bad. I miss her so much it doesnt feel like this pain will ever stop. Having lost other beloved pets i know that as time passes it gets easier to handle,but one certainly never forgets their beloved pets. Rest in peace Missy, we all love you more than words can say and we will never forget the joy you brought to our lives.

[Oliver & Henry's Mum]

I am so terribly sorry to hear about Missy. That must have been extremely shocking, and very difficult with your 3 year old daughter present.

You have my sincerest condolences.

[Margie-Rex's Mom]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved Missy. What a horrible experience for you and your little girl. You have my deepest condolences.

[Sarah8580]

Thank you for the kind words. I cant even express how deeply sad i am without her. I just keep thinking that if i would have taken her to the vet right away after she threw up then maybe they could have saved her somehow. I know that that kind of thinking doesnt help my situation but its hard not to think of the what ifs. I cant seem to stop replaying that horrible day over in my head. I burst into tears at random times through out the day because i want to hold her, pet her, and see her beautiful loving face. I love you so much Missy and im lost without you.

[Margie-Rex's Mom]

You don't need to express your sadness....all of us here completely understand exactly how you are feeling. Including the "what ifs" you are beating yourself up with. Please don't do that to yourself. Simple fact: dogs vomit for all kinds of reasons. Some are simple: they ate too much, ate something they shouldn't, etc. Others, as you know are not simple. But Missy got up and seemed fine. In the hour between that when when she wasn't fine, there most probably was nothing the vet could have done anyway.

Have you talked to your vet about your thoughts? They certainly could put your mind at ease...at least about that.

I read something today that brought back all the faces of the dogs I've loved and lost, especially my "heart dog", Rex. "Every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are."

Missy will always be with you, as you carry a piece of her heart in yours. It doesn't take the pain away, and the horrible sense of loss. But just continue to love your dogs - those you have now, and those who will come in the future - as you loved Missy.

[Oliver & Henry's Mum]

Margie, that is a beautiful sentiment. ♥

Sarah, as Margie said, please don't be hard on yourself with the "what ifs". We all do that at these difficult times, and it's really not good for you. I realize that Missy's passing was very, very sudden, which can be a blessing at least for Missy, not so much for you.

Most of us have been where you are right now, and will be again. It's never easy. Some people simply don't understand what it is to lose a beloved dog, but everyone here does. We know that Missy was your heart. People who aren't "dog people" often wonder why a week later we aren't back to our old selves. They simply don't understand the deep bond and connection we have with our four legged family members.

Like you, I also have children. At the time I lost my beloved Emma (my Golden) my youngest son was having his 2nd Birthday, and it was Easter Weekend. My older son was 6 and a half, and was devastated as Emma was there when he was born. This is also a time when we have to think about our children and what lessons we'll teach them about love and loss. It's a tall order.

Everyone here understands, and when you need to talk about it or just share, we'll listen and hopefully offer some comfort. I sometimes think it's almost harder than losing a human loved one as the rest of the world understands that pain, but they don't necessarily when it comes to our dogs.

You do have my most profound sympathies.

Deborah ♥

[Sarah8580]

Thank you Margie and Deborah for offering such kind words and condolence it really does help. I especially liked what you , Margie, said about a piece of Missy's heart always being with me. Even though reading it made cry its very bittersweet. I have lost a beloved pet before Missy, my siberian huskey Sasha. It took me a long time to learn how to deal with her passing. What makes Missy's death so much harder was actually witnessing her dying. I wasnt home when Sasha passed so the only mental images i have of her are when she was alive and well. Seeing Missy's life slip away before my eyes is something i dont think i'll ever forget. I try so hard not to let my mind go there but its impossible. she was such a loving dog, the cuddliest dog i've ever owned. She would just lay the front part of her body across your lap and then lift her head so it would rest on my chest and she would just stare at me with those pretty brown eyes of hers and she'd sneek in a kiss or two. Thats the way i want to remember her ... My Lovebug.

[manitwo]

Please accept my sincere sympathy for the loss of your darling girl MISSY.
No the hurt never goes away but it does lesson with time.
Later on it may help to get another pet,not to replace MISSY as this can never happen,but i have found it helps.
Sending love and prayers to you and your family.Manitwo ,Mim and Badge.

[Sarah8580]

Thank you when my sasha passed away 8 years ago i couldnt stand the emptiness of not having a dog i only lasted about 2 weeks before i found my baby Zoey. Zoey is still with us her and Missy were "sisters". Zoey misses Missy a lot, you can just tell shes looking for her. She even lays in Missy's spot on the couch. I am stuck like glue to Zoey because not only does she help comfort me but i try my best to comfort her. At this point i dont think i'd get another dog. I think it'd be too much stress on my old girl Zoey. But sometime in the future im sure i will .