by mweinstock1 on Wed Jun 16, 2010 7:18 pm
Hello Kris & Deborah, i really appreciate both of your support so much. it means so much to me. first..what is a photobucket? second..is there an address regular pictures can be sent into..that they daily puppy can post for me on here? i could mail them in. i really have absolutely no clue how to do it otherwise. now i would also be more than happy to mail u a picture of my Buffy and you would put it on here for me..i'd love that too. let me know if that is something u would think about doing. i don't know what the rules are about that here. Kris you are so right, Buffy and i were together from the time she was a puppy till the time till she was 8 years old then we were apart for awhile other than visits since my divorce two years ago. i would visit with Buffy anytime i could but mainly it would be when my son was in from college from orlando, -we'd play together as if we'd never been separated a day. then this January my fiance and i moved to virginia from new jersey. last time i saw Buffy was in March when we visited new jersey , and we are going again this coming weekend..i had been planning on seeing her then..and looking forward to it so much..that makes it even harder i have to tell you, because unexpectedly my ex had called the beginning of this month to say she was bleeding severely from her nose..doctors couldn't stop it...specialist took bloodwork and x-rays, she had cancer they said..she was ten years old..and the decision was made to put her to sleep. so i never got to hold her again and see her once more. my ex had her cremated and has a special box for her, he has her at his apartment now. i am planning on HOLDING HER ONCE AGAIN{her ashes in her special box} ..it is something i really want and need to do no matter how hard it is . i know it is going to be so hard. my son who is flying into new jersey from orlando also is in for a hard time as he did not get to see her once more either and he is actually staying there so it is going to be extremely hard on him not to have her around him. when we spoke the night she was put to sleep on the phone he said to me.."mom i have no one here to comfort me" oh my god, my heart dropped to my feet...my baby..and here i was no where near him to hold him..i could only comfort him with words ..both our hearts are broken ..we miss Buffy so much..and it will be so different for us without her there...but more so for him than me..as he stays there when he visits...for me i remember her as she was and visited her each and every time..and loved her so much and always will and will never never forget her..i will honor her memory..she was always there to comfort me when i was having a hard time..and there were many...she always knew..she'd lay down beside me real close and snuggle. she was a very special part of my life and i hope she knows how much she meant to me and always will mean to me. thank you guys for letting me tell you my story. i will be off the computer after this friday evening the 18th till after the 27th as i will be in new jersey visiting my son..and holding my buffy once again. and then i will also be able to comfort my son in person..as only a mother can. and we can cry together..as no matter how i try not to that's all i do. thank you both so much and i will most certainly keep you up t o date on my future loved one. special hugs, Mindy